it all started out as a harmless fb comment...

she started ranting rubbish about how she enjoyed gg back to gemas for the cny with her lovely relatives there. so we are the burdensome side of her relatives? they usually go back for a day and back on the same day. i politely asked why dun they stay longer. n she replied they would have no house to come back to in kl. i tried to act blur and said her words were confusing... she replied with 当局者迷，旁观者清。 可有些人喜欢装傻般朦。

what the hell. totally ruined my cny. how could someone i consider close all these years say such words... i already try to give us both a 台阶 to 下。 she's moronic, selfish and devoid of feelings. doesnt she know we feel the same way she feels when she goes back to gemas by gg back to kl every new year. she'll forever be transparent to me from now on...

it hurts badly and has been even worst since last friday... i will never forget her words till the day i die...

i love my auntie but her daughter's words make it difficult for me to treat them like before when nothing happened... it will always hurt n i will always have to thread carefully when with them... which i always have.. it just makes it all worst... n she will still have the cheek to face us when we see them tmr... i dunno how to face my auntie... will our relationship turn just because of a childish 30 yr old who thinks she's acting 黑脸 on behalf of her parents? she's just being a spolitbrat...

i feel like telling my dai gu... hugging her and crying out in her arms... that's how much i love and trust and respect her...

i am welling up in tears thinking of what would happen if i were to tell... and keeping my feelings under check is my forte but can i do it this time? i am doubting myself and not restraining my anger at all... if all these bursts out, will i feel better? will it make my dai gu sad? will it strain our relationship? i dont know and hope i'll never know...